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With the beginning of a new year there always seems to be this unseen subtle peer pressure to anounce some sort of new years resolution or change. I dont know why or understand the reasoning behind this.

New years resolutions always undoubtedly fill pages of magazines and newspapers with ideas and suggestions on how to change or improve your current habits or lifestyle. What for? lol… Are we all too fat, ugly, lacking in cleavage and washboard tummys hahaha…are we all lazy, unfit and just have no life and friends? Maybe we are just far too gullible and buy into all this mumbo jumbo called propaganda! Yes! Thats what it is, well thats what I was taught at school (Business Economics to be exact). Propoganda is a tool or strategy in advertising to lure potential customers to buy more and to spread the rumour around. Basically its to make more money!
So no, you are not too fat and lazy with no life or friends, just in debt after spending your allocated budget for your savings fund on your Gym contract! Cos the only thing that gets thinner is your wallet or purse.

Now why would I talk about changes then if I am totally against resolutions and propaganda you ask? Well maybe because of all this talk about new age and the end of the world. I have had my share of transformation and enlightenment and maybe I could say I am still evolving. My road does look very long and difficult but I have only begun and well, I have not much else to do with my time except contemplate my navel. No one really cares what you do these days unless you opinion conflicts with theres and they feel the necessity to convert you. Because they are right and so were there parents and there parents and blah blah blah…

If everyone concentrated on there own life and issues then we would have so much less problems. I can allocate so much more time to sort my own day out if I did not think or worry about Joe Blobs mom whose sister married that guy from the wrong side of the tracks and is now doing you know what and had to go somewhere to do something! shooo …I am exhausted just saying that, but you get my point.
I think my bit of propogande for this year that I would love to share is “Mind Your Own Business!” “keep your nose in your own problems”, “Look at your self before looking at others!”

Somehow I find this new change fantastic and I feel so much lighter already!
P.S. I dont care what so and so wore to the mall last week!

Politics and Religion

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Growing up one of the topics my mom told me never to talk about was politics and religion. The funny thing is these are my favourite topics to talk about.

Politics and religion not only unifies people but it also segregates us.

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Religion has always had a way of bringing people together and creating communities. The idea of same thought based feelings and rules seems very logical to most. For a long time man lived happily together with one another even though some believed in other religions. The idea of believing in God and the principles and morals set out by religion made peaceful loving communities. But then politics reared its ugly head and ruined everything. Some might disagree but I don’t really care too much what they think. With politics came the idea that someone or some group had to be superior and control the masses. Why they think they had to be superior I don’t know. But this is why I find this topic so fascinating. It ties up with all my other blogs about the ego and how it can affect us. Politics is the invention from the ego. The egos way of trying to justify itself regarding its wants and needs for power and greed. Why the general public cannot live happily as they once did fascinates me. There were no starving or homeless people. But since the invention and creation of politics we suddenly have homeless and starving people. And the power and greed doesn’t just end at their doorstep, no not at all. Why have one country when you can have another? And so war started. Is religion really the excuse for war? I don’t think so. People lived rather happily with one another before a president was elected. Now suddenly religion is blamed for war. Really? War uses religion to hide behind. It creates a mask for those in power to hide behind and to use our difference to explain and rationalize their reasons for wanting more. How one individual can influence a whole nation fascinate me? Are we not more than just silly puppets following the masses? We were born with our own minds.

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In the past I used to think that religion was a way of separating us. Yes, to some degree it does. But what it does, is give communities a sense of belonging and meaning to life. It sets us some ground rules for living and morals. I find it very ironic when a politician uses religion to back up his reason for domination. Everything about politics goes against the good morals and rules that religion gives us. I know it sounds like I am bashing politicians but I have yet to see one with real mindful good intentions that are followed through. Most of the time they are just full of hot air and big words. Politics creates a group of people that were once joined by common beliefs and religion and segregates them even more into smaller groups. Our world has been divided so much that we have lost our common thread that brought us peace and harmony.

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I have no issues with different religions and spiritual preferences. The common thread is the belief of God and living life peacefully is the same in all communities. If we could all see past our ego based thoughts and those in power that feed those thoughts, then we are not far from peace. If all people could see that those in power dominate us through fear then we can move beyond this sess pool of hatred and war. Politics is all fear based that which the ego loves to live on and gain more power and energy. This energy draining power gets stronger each day as more and more of us live in fear. Fear created by war, famine and disease. And at the center of all of this is politics. One or two people in power creating thought based fears and separating once peaceful communities into sad and lonely places riddled with war and famine. The excuse of religion and the difference between each other is always the main focus and suddenly the fear of ones neighbor is now the problem. It is not!

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I have no time for politicians at all. I find them the most ego based and most low vibrational beings around. This sounds harsh but someone has to say it. How else can I make reality more real? How else can I make communities come together without being truthful and honest? For how long will you live in fear of your neighbour? Can you really justify your fear? The fear created by mass media and politics. Fear has separated you and put you in a box with a label on. I will not be put in a box with a label. If one asks my religion, I say, “I Believe”, if they ask my political views, I will say, “ Peace and harmony”. The moment you decide to be labeled and put in a specific box is the moment you separate yourself from your community. This is when you decided that fear will rule you and dictate how you live, where you live and how. This is not what God intended for you. Peace does not mean segregation, it does not mean war or famine and it certainly does not mean you are better than your neighbour.

 

 


 

Fear

In fear I live my days

Wanting more and needing more

The emptiness gets bigger the more I need

The more I need the less I have

The more fear I gain the less love I have

When will it end and when will I breathe?

 

When fear rules no more

I will want less and need less

The emptiness will be gone

Gratitude will fill my life

And love will fill the space where fear once lived

And the breathe of life will fill my heart…

 

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That feel good pill…

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From very young I have always questioned the universe, about the simple things in life. I am sure you have also have had moments when you asked why? Science and biology always seem to have answered most questions in the past and with technology today the sky is the limit. But that’s about it! The sky is the limit! What about beyond that? Beyond what you cannot see or even begin to imagine. Science thinks it has the answers but I do not think so.

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The main reason I decided to learn natural and holistic healing was because of the limit that science and technology has. And the reason I believe this is because they have no explanation for the unseen or unheard. Does this sound silly to you? Well for me it does not. For the past 20 years I have battled along with strange and maybe not deadly health issues but more uncomfortable and draining issues. I have tried so many doctors, specialists and had so many kinds of tests. What I have learnt from this can make me a medical practitioner. It’s easy, because 99% of all illnesses doctors diagnose are either stress or depression related. And they absolutely love anti depressants and any form of anxiety and depression medication. I wonder if they can solve hunger, poverty and war with anti depressants? I think they are trying to because so many people are on them. We live in a society that no longer wants to feel any form of emotion or pain. We want to be devoid of any “stressful” emotion and just be… “Happy”! We don’t want to worry about the millions of starving people in Africa, the raping and murdering of woman and children daily, the extinction of animals and the ever increasing threat to our crashing environment, all brought on by people themselves. Our quest for “Happiness” and that feel good factor has become so ego based that we have forgotten what is important. The only explanation that I can seem to come up with is that we are one with the earth and our universe.

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We all have that one friend who loves to phone and talk and talk only about their problems. They never seem to ask how you are because it’s always about them. Somehow you feel extremely drained and tired after this. Almost like your energy is drained! Well this is what I am talking about. Our planet our home, mother earth is in trouble. The animals are slowly dying, our trees are being destroyed, the water polluted, our planet is in danger and in pain. And so are we. We are all one with the nature and one with the universe. The fatigue and pain we feel is the pain our planet and universe is feeling. We are all one. Will this go away by taking a pill and ignoring it or by embracing it and doing something real.

 

Our constant battle to avoid the real issues is all in vain. The more we try to subdue our subconscious mind with technology and medication the worse things seems to get. Life is like a vicious cycle that keeps repeating the same problems and yet we are so numb and void of any emotional attachments that we don’t see the real problem. I don’t know when we as human’s beings decided not feel anymore. At what point was the decision made to take our emotions out of the equation? In most instances there is always the common denominator of power and money hunger. But soon the limited instant gratification of this power will diminish and those in power will no longer get their instant fix they so longingly are looking for. Technology and science can only provide what the physical body requires and then leaves the other emotional, spiritual and etheric body crying with hunger. The human physical body only takes up 10% of you and yet it makes the body feel intoxicated with all the wants and needs that it requires. Unbeknown to most people their egos can take up so much of their time in their life that when it comes to their last hour they suddenly realize what life is all about. That 90% of you that has been looking and longing for much more than what the physical body needs. This longing for something manifests into the physical body. It is here that you suddenly feel drained and exhausted. Strange unexplained bodily pains and aches. When the spiritual body cannot find what it needs it finds a way to tell you. Using your physical body as a sign that something is missing.

 

Although it has taken me many years to realize that my chronic pain and fatigue has been all but in the metaphysical realm, subconsciously I knew. As human beings we try hard to ignore the obvious, because in our society today such issues are frowned upon. Why would old and ancient wisdom help us when we have strived so hard for centuries to perfect science and technology? With all these advancements how possibly could simple household remedies cure us? It does seem so ironic. And as we try and grappled at the irony of whole thing we still sit with the same problems along with the side effects of our technology and fast paced lifestyles. But at some point we will realize that there is more to life than life itself. The ego will eventually tire out and exhaust us and we will realize what is important in life but until then we will struggle along and learn from our desirable mistakes.

 

Loosen the shackles and embrace life as it is…

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Open your eyes dear one

The curtain is yet not open

Why you only want 1% of life is a mystery

Open the curtain to see more

Life is also the unseen

Until you see the rest

You will not rest…

Passion

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Have you ever had an argument with your spouse? We all have, but have you been so angry the whole neighborhood could hear your argument. Well, today was my day for this. I have two children, work and run a household and lets just say that life does get pretty hectic most days. I hear this all the time, “You can fight, but just not in front of the children!”. Umm…ok hubby next week I am free can we have our argument then? I have an opening at about 3pm.

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Oh please people, don’t be so righteous all the time! We all have our fights sometimes, and I am not talking about abusive relationships here at all. I am talking about people with healthy relationships. But maybe this is why they are healthy to begin with. If you never release pent up anger and frustration it just sits and matures into something bad, and then you end up in a divorce court wondering what happened? Where did the love and passion go? Maybe I am lucky to have foreign blood flowing through me. Italians, Portuguese and Spanish people have no problem showing their emotions. Its called Passion, it is what makes them so appealing to others. The freedom to feel and express themselves, it is really a true art form that many a nation have yet to learn, or maybe try to learn. But how do you get it? If you can, not sure you can just learn to express yourself. I believe its comes from your family. Everyone has a particular way of bringing up his or her children. Families have their own traditions but this is more than just a simple tradition. This is a learnt behavior. Being able to express yourself is not just a cultural aspect of oneself but more a psychological and physiological part of you. Learnt behavioral patterns can influence your whole life. If you are unable to truly express yourself and your emotions you battle later in your life. Relationships are based on the emotional IQ of a person and those who are unable to express their emotions battle to maintain truly loving and lasting relationships. This ability to express your feelings is so crucial to a loving marriage and friendship. If you partner is unable to understand you or know how you feel you create a barrier.

 

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I am not a professional in psychology so my advice on how to learn to express yourself might not give you the outcome you are expecting. My point though I am trying to get out there is, don’t hide your disagreements from everyone. It’s ok to feel angry, sad, annoyed and frustrated sometimes. It’s ok to hug and give your partner a big kiss in public or around children. The important thing is to show your children and family that even though you have disagreements sometimes and you get angry with each, you still love one another. You show your children how to say sorry, how to forgive and forget. These are such important life skills for young children to learn. Show them that it’s ok to have feelings and how to express them. Having a healthy emotional IQ is fantastic. My marriage might not be “The Perfect” one but it is perfect for me. I don’t go to sleep with anything unspoken; and most of all I always say, ‘I Love You!’.

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Sins of my Forefathers

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Of lately I have battled with one of the egos worst of traits’, judging and separating myself from other beings. My ego would look externally for reasons to dislike someone, something that I am not very happy to be proud of. And what might you say has brought this emotion and thought to the surface? I have never been one to watch or read the news, and did this not so that I might remain ignorant but because I wished that my mind and soul would not be overturned by emotions that my ego mind would instill in me. But it is very difficult to do such a thing.

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Social media makes it very hard for one to ignore the plight of others and in order to understand them better I bemuse myself by reading their links on FB or Twitter. I have an enormous amount of sadness when I read the news. South Africans are coming up for elections soon and so the most treacherous of stories rear there ugly heads and play with our minds. The media has a way of making the best of friend’s enemies. And when I wonder why this is so, I think about how every being lives in the sinful shadow that their forefathers had created. Even though we might have never played a part of their creation or wanted to be a part of it we still suffer in silence. We are segregated into groups of those who wish to move forward in peace, those who live everyday to pay for the sins and those who never have any intention at all to change. I like to think of myself as one who wishes to move forward, but everyday is a struggle to ignore my ego. I am living the life created by my forefathers and have no intention of redoing the same mistakes and yet you see those who won the battle stumbling down to the same  level that my forefathers had. Where money and power are the only source of happiness. My heart battles with the whole irony of the situation. When you see a nation fight so long for freedom and peace, and then create a life of anger, hate and contempt. Are they really free? Is this what our whole lives are about. To fight so hard for freedom that when we achieve it we are empty vessels fuelled with nothing but hate. Who is free?

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I will continue my battle each day to reach that stage when I can say that I really do not care anymore, but how hard it is when I see what pain and suffering the ego can create. The only thing that can destroy man is man himself. The ego will rule us till we destroy ourselves. We are in essence our own worst enemy and in the end we will destroy ourselves and everyone else. Who will be free then? Is freedom a state of mind or a price tag? Does it have a name or position in society? Is the essence of man really decided on how much money he can take from another? What kind of person sees himself above others? We are all one, one of the same light and essence, what you do unto others you do unto yourself. The great law of the universe says that what you put out comes back ten fold to you. So do you think that living a life of hate and contempt will bring you happiness. Is your life better now that you have ruined another life? But because we are only human we only learn from mistakes. Some take longer to learn and then there are those who will never understand. They wonder their whole life why me?

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The Hatred of Ego

Oh Woe is thyself and thy ego!

Shall we never feel the warmth of the sun?

Shall we never feel freedom and peace?

From whence thy cometh?

Shall I never feel freedom till the end of my days, why does my ego create such pain?

My house shines in its glory, my maids fill my overflowing cup of gold.

My enemies are now my slaves. And yet, my heart is dark and emptiness is fuelled within.

Peace shall never follow my days but only pain and suffering.

Oh why do I not know who I AM?

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What a sad world you live in ..

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I have not really anything concrete to write about today. Normally a subject just pops in my head and I ask family and friends questions about my topic. But today I am trying very hard to stay positive in my little world I have created not only for me but my family. I believe I do not go out to much as most people have generally nothing nice to say these days. They are always complaining. If I go on too much about this I might sound like I am complaining to. But have you noticed that generally everyone around you has something they are not happy about. It just never seems to get much better. The weathers too hot or too cold, not enough money, the country is run by thieves, there is no electricity (I live in South Africa), then theres no water, oh don’t forget the crime and your noisy neighbour who has no respect for everyone. My favourite is people who even make Facebook pages about the things they don’t like!  Talk about spreading negativity and bad karma! Wow! that a whopper! And you wonder why your life has so many downs and very few ups!

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I seriously believe in karma and the law of the universe. What you put out is what you get back ten fold. Ever wondered why your FB page of negativity never brings you joy? Just pent up anger! Umm, we’ll… hello its not a happy place to begin with. I know certain things in this world can be very frustrating at times but is it really worth making yourself depressed and down about it. As much as load shedding and water shortages are frustrating you have to look at the bright side of it. People in rural areas don’t worry about this, because they don’t have such luxuries to begin with. And besides how much fun your children have at bath time when you tell them tonight you are swimming instead of bathing (theres no water!) lol, and then we will braai! I personally love to have quiet candle lit nights. The TV is off and everyone gets to talk to each other. And I get to pretend I live in an era when electricity doesn’t exist and I can fantasise about my vegetable garden that I probably will never grow because I procrastinate so much.

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But seriously everyone, I think its time we started to look at the brighter side of life and not the dark side. These little interruptions in our life are not so bad, you will survive, you will all still have that Laptop of yours, the cellphone, designer label clothing and fast car, the fancy house paid on credit…lol…and you still don’t live on the street in winter -9C with no family or food! What could be worse? Ummm… waking up and feeling happy and positive? Are come on now, cheer up…happy is not so bad!

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Socially Inept

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It is about 12:30am and the music is loud the house is packed with all sorts of people. A young guy is passed out on the couch and in the distance I can hear someone puking in the toilet. A couple of my friends are naked in the swimming pool and one of my male friends is trying to pick up his “lay” for the night. My “date” has already left with one of my friends for the night. I think it had something to do with the fact that I told him I don’t do sex on the first date. I feel a bit hurt and all I want to do is go home but my ride home is smoking weed somewhere on the property. A friend offers me a drink, I decline and say, “No, thanks I don’t drink.” The reply, “Oh you are such bore!” And I was left alone.

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This was almost 20 years ago but I don’t think much has changed since then except for the amount of invites I received after that event. It is normal in our society to accept the dangerous and macabre sense of lifestyle. We laugh at others in pain and joke about their misfortunes. When you don’t act in the same manner suddenly you are the odd ball the bad one and the one who wont conform. And the ironic story behind all of this is that when something goes wrong whom do we blame? Why it cannot be our bad sense of judgment because everyone does it surely, so it can be ok? Right? We live in a society where being the bad boy or girl is cool or in fashion. Where drugs and alcohol is glamourized and made to look ok and acceptable. Advertising is the worst culprit and is always using sex to sell and relating alcohol to glamorous lives with fun and excitement. You must look the part and have the right drink. Gone are traditional values and thoughts when you have a drink. This is a lifestyle for sale and everyone wants it. And our youth are the most vulnerable to this exposure. It is difficult to have a balanced lifestyle and when you find it keep it. Make sure that you surround yourself with friends with similar outlook on life. It is so easy to go from balanced to reckless.

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I would regularly question myself when I was young why I did not fit in anywhere. I never did any harm to anyone I loved to party but just not the way they liked to party. Many nights I cried to sleep feeling rejected for being the “Good Girl”. Should I do what they all did to be accepted? But then it would go against what I believed in. So I left it. Now I am a lot older I look back at these situations and I thank God for being rejected. I have had countless discussions with my husband regarding this. Often I was called judgmental, but I was never the one who judged. There are so many sides to this argument that you could talk and talk about it all day and night. No matter how much I try to make this article non-biased the fact remains it will always be biased. As long as humanity live the way they do there will always be that great divide amongst us. Those who follow and those who lead by example. The choice is yours. You can be your own person and lead by example or follow the crowd. Whatever crowd, its your choice but make sure you clearly understand the consequences of your actions and choices you make. Are you living the life you really wanted or are you living the life that another has? Can you make your own choices that reflect who you are? It’s so easy to get caught up in another friends’ life and forget your own needs and wants.

The first thing and the best thing I remember about Sunday school was being told, your body is a temple of God. I loved this and to this day I will live by this rule. If there was a giant temple outside your house that was strictly for God, would you go in their and have raucous parties, smoke, drink take drugs and have sex with anyone who offered? Would you do this in your church? The answer to anyone would be, “Of course no! Are you crazy?” Well then why do it to your body?

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When I go to a braai or get together with friends now there is a different scenario. There is the person who has a drink now and then and maybe a smoke when they drink. Someone who drinks to be part of the crowd and one who abuses it. And worst of all the one who insists on offering you several times even though you have told them no. I have come to think of myself as the little label on the cigarette box, the one that says, “Smoking causes cancer”. Even though I never say anything somehow I make people feel uncomfortable to the point that they will get up and move somewhere else. Luckily to the new laws in South Africa most people have stopped smoking for health reasons and don’t drink because of driving. But somehow there still is those few who think their ego driven habit should be acceptable to everyone. I say ‘ego driven’ as there is no other way to describe a person who drinks and smokes heavily. They abuse these substances to such a degree that it will affect everyone around them. They insist on their rights being important but forget to note the ones who have no choice but to be involved. You might say then, “Stay at home if you don’t like it.” Well I could but is that fair? Why should I not enjoy socializing because of this? Where is the balance and the respect for others? If you need to drive then don’t drink. If you want to smoke go to a smoking section. Don’t impose your choices on others and expect them to rally around you non judgmental when you need a drive home. It’s wrong to take advantage.

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We are entering such an important doorway for humanity now. Our conscious mind and souls are evolving now to something wonderful. We as a human race have accomplished so much and yet we still cannot control our egos and the need to self gratify and self sooth ourselves. We have created an environment that has become socially inept to such a degree that we no longer hear each other’s voices. We don’t listen to each other and we show no compassion. We become obsessed with our own needs and what we think we need to feel better or look better. The consequences of the choices is never questioned or thought about. Most times it is a last resort when something goes wrong. When we can no longer hide behind the façade of happiness created or induced artificially by stimulants we use technology. No one can see our sadness or discontent with life through social media. We twitter, BBM and Watsapp our friends and pretend to be something else. No longer do couples stare lovingly at each other or friends look at each other during conversation. Their faces are hidden behind their cell phones and iPads. We conquer one addiction and replace it with another. Can we evolve and see through the curtains. Can we look at life the way it was meant to be? Embrace who we are and what we are. Accept our differences, our pain, anger and frustrations in life and move on. All these things make us who we are and that is just the way God wants us to be.

I will end this with a question from: The Power of Kabbalah by Yehuda Berg

If people are the essence of desire, and the universe is flooded with light, what’s standing in the way of our everlasting happiness?

– A curtain.

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Your Heart…

Where is your heart today? Did you do something with heart?

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These are questions I would like you to ask yourself today. Once you have sat quietly and really thought about the answers only then will you understand why God would ask this question. You can change the world by understanding these questions.

Where is my heart today? My heart is always with God, my family and friends. And as long as my heart is with them I will always have a home. This is not a physical home but a spiritual home. This is a place in my heart that is reserved for those I love and care for that no matter where I am I can go to that place in my heart and be at home.

Did I do something with heart? Yes, I did. I listened to my children today, I cleaned up and did my chores. And yes, the simple task of cleaning up is important. When it is done with heart and not with contempt you gain self respect and dignity. Caring for your family without expectations also gives great rewards for your family and yourself.

So today ask yourself these questions. Because living with heart is a great gift! Give with heart and you will receive with heart…

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Your Heart…