I BANGED into someone’s car today. Note the caps there because that’s what I heard. It wasn’t that bad but the sound was enough to wake up all my senses and come back to reality. I had reversed into a car behind me, very slowly but in the moment where the sound seemed to echo forever and the sound of my heart sounded like trumpets in my ears. The Divine Source of all aka ‘GOD’ wanted to get my attention well he did.
My husband and I are one of the many statistics today caused from the lack of equality and the never-ending economic instabilities of the world. There is a very thin line that separates wealth distinction these days. Before you would have a middle class, but I see a trend forming where you are either rich or you are poor. Well my husband and I have started referring to ourselves to poor, poor financially. We have battled unemployment now for 2 years. Have we let it get the better of us, well, not yet as we have managed to survive this long. Lucky for us we have a very loving and supporting family to help us out, but what about the others?
Well, this is more about our story I would say, but maybe others experiencing this could also relate. We could blame a lot of things; apartheid is a favourite in South Africa and yes, as a white I could blame it, as it is affecting us as well. There is no longer a separation in race in South Africa with regards to the effects of Apartheid. As a white it has messed up my life as well, hard to believe for some but it has. But that’s not my excuse, I don’t have one to declare and I don’t want an excuse either. What I do want is to share how this is affecting me. This could relate to anyone today battling financially, white, pink, purple, black, green whatever you are.
Do I sit back and admit defeat? No, because its not in my nature to do that. I was born a fighter and will die one. But lately I have let the world bring me down to a place I really do not like. My heart breaks to think that if I feel this way how does another feel who has less than me, one who does not even have the comfort of a loved one to help them pull through. For someone to pull through this solely on their own needs a reward for being so strong. I battle with the thought of not being able to provide my children with basic needs like medical cover or school equipment. Seeing them disheartened when I cannot offer them more than a sandwich for lunch. Saying, ‘Yes, it’s peanut butter again!’ But the point is even though I can provide more than most other parents can, my pain is no different to yours. Compassion is the keyword here for all. It does not matter what financial status or race, creed religion you are we all feel pain the same way. Today I would ask everyone to start showing more compassion to your neighbour, be a bit more understanding even if you think they have the upper hand. It does not matter how much more or less you or they have. Unity starts at soul level, lets start being more accommodating of each other and help each other more. What you give out so you shall receive. Make sure what you give out is all good and filled with the love of God and peace. Ten fold shall return to you in many ways.
So why is this “Bang!’ so relevant? Well, it’s a wake up call for me to stop feeling sorry for myself and do what I need to move forward. So what if I have to step backwards or take a few steps down the ladder? If that’s what I need to move forward in life again then I am willing to take the challenge. Too many people are too proud to say they need help or are willing to lower their standards to a job that they find below them, but pride can get the better of you. I will not let that happen to me. Many people play the racial and religious game and I don’t buy it. This has been advertised and sold for too many willing zombiefied people. I believe ‘Survival of the fittest!’. Today I will survive, I will move forward to my new beginnings. And so too must everyone else, embrace your challenge, don’t give up and keep moving forward. The moment you sit back and blame another for your mistakes and inadequacies is the day you give up on yourself. Be proud of who you are and go forth into the unknown and conquer your world, not another’s, they are on there own journey. While you are complaining and angered by another’s fortune you waste your precious time and energy when you could be building your own future. Let us change things now and end this cycle and create a new beginning, a beginning that brings light, love and compassion and most of all peace. Peace that resonates not only in our world and country but the peace that we carry within our hearts and souls.
Go forth and conquer your dreams and don’t accept defeat! That my dear is for the faint hearted and weak of mind.
P.S. This was written last year and since then life is looking a lot better for us. Even though we are starting again at the bottom of the food chain…lol…we have a steady small income and employment. It’s not a lot but we make do and even though we might not be blessed richly financially we are lucky to be blessed with gratitude, love, hope, family, friendship, and inner peace.